Thinking of Facts are sometimes hurtful.
i see it some on my past, some facts ran into my consciousness and remind me of some truth-hurtful facts.
i have been in a condition of saying "i have to die but i can't". It placed me in a feeling of being a trash, abandoned after had been fully-used.
It was a condition where i cannot sleep in one whole week and refused to be considered as alive.i counted my life day by day.
A condition of "do not let anybody knows, interferes or even know how i feel".
A condition of "smile makes everyone better, so you better fake some laughters or you may fail"
A principle that can be counted as "being far of society is better cause i wont bother anyone".
i should Thank God i have been graduated from school. so that none of my friend can see me being blurred out.
And Now,i think i thank God that he made me to have my 21st birthday, still alive.
PS: to YOU, just please do not make it happen again cause i may fall deeper.